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A Place for Positivity

There is no pill that makes everything better.

Even the medication you can get to help don't magically make the world fill with hearts, flowers, glitter and hope.

For many hope is something that we strive for. A choice to be positive has to be made on a daily basis. Often many times during the day.

Each time a negative thought crosses your mind, or your internal monologue turns to a dark subject. Survivors have to pick themselves up, remind themselves of the good times and choose the light over the dark.

I know that I can second guess something and make it much bigger than it actually is, or even could be, in a matter of moments. I can get to the point where I start to feel palpitations and shaky. That can be the effect of 'just' one thought. 

Now imagine if you have those feelings constantly. They become all consuming. Until there is no good sounds left inside your head. All of them are in your voice or the voice of someone who once said something bad. 

This is the start of a problem. However, if you can feel the moments as they rise it is possible to slow them down. 

Just because someone is smiling, doesn't make them happy. Just because they laugh it doesn't mean that they are cured.

What we are doing is faking it until with make it. Trying to find joy in the small things. It is hard to not get bogged down in the minutia. To look at those around you and feel that they have the secret that you are looking for. 

The modern era with the connectivity on the internet has made the world smaller, but also heightened the feeling of being alone and inferiority. 

A scroll through your facebook timeline will bring you face to status with people who appear to have it all, living life as if every day is their last. Checking goals off their bucket list. 

What you don't see is how they felt at breakfast as they left their children in bed so that they could go to work and earn the money to pay for their next adventure. Or the worry of another about where the next pound is coming from to pay for their rent. People on the whole only put the camera worthy moments on Facebook.

Instagram is another prime example of that. Every shot on there is thought about and mostly planned, filtered and now often photoshopped as well. It is a site full of kodak moments. 

As long as you are able to be true to yourself and take most of what you can read online with a pinch of salt you are generally on the right road. 

I am honest on here, however I don't share everything about my life. 

Personally I didn't start to make progress with my own happiness until I cut out the people who brought me down. It had to be a definate decision. I won't lie and say it was easy, because it wasn't. But on a whole everything feels so much better without them in constant contact. I have almost got to the point where I don't think about them and what they think about me at all. 

A lot of my own problems stem from needing to know what people think of me. I would like to be a people pleaser, something in the way I was raised makes me want to be all things to everyone. I find it hard to accept that I have limitations. I don't like to have a limit. 

This is why there are so many facets in What BeeBee Did... just one topic would bore me. I have so much more to me that just one subject. I have a brain that jumps from one subject to another, and frequently. Concentration doesn't come easily to me, neither does original creativity. However, I can leap from one person's idea to another, to a spark that will either get me all excited and unnecessary on will wind up as a post on here. 

I want to keep things positive on here, which will lead to some flippant posts and other slightly deeper ones. 

My Life Monday: Decision Making

When faced with despair, there can only be a decision to be made.

To I rise above it, or do I sink to the bottom of the pit.

I'll put my hands up and admit I have been sinking. I've been sinking fast.

I am starting to turn a corner, at last. It's going to be hard work, but I am going to pull myself out from underneath the chasm I have been hiding under.

First in this step is starting to care for me again. Rather than the opinions that others may have of me. I can't change those, I can't change me. I can however be the best me I can be. At home, at work and online.

I have downloaded some inspirational books to my phone and I will take baby steps from here, and with summer coming up I may even get to grow my nails - for a little bit at least.

My Life Monday: Targets for April

So this month I am aiming to get on top of a few things.

This starts with a complete bedroom declutter.

The wardrobe has far too many things in it. Including blankets, sheets, random other bedding, enough pillowcases to cover a hotel full of pillows, odd non-matching duvet sets, suitcases, a tv from one of the kid's bedrooms and that's before you even get to the mounds of clothes.

Lots of clothes that either fit and I don't wear or clothes that don't fit and theere are rows up rows of books that need reading or bosing, donating, selling or binning. I think you might be starting to get my drift.

It feels like I'm drowning under all the stuff in there. I daren't even look under the bed! There could be a whole undiscovered civilisation living under there.

What I need to be is ruthless, someting I find tricky yet also weirdly exhilerating.

So on my To Do list this month.

Reduce surface clutter.
Organise bedding - getting rid of some and replacing the ones that have seen better days with new bedding.
Being ruthless at the bookcase and in the wardrobe.
if it doesn't fit, it must go
if I haven't worn it, it must go
Make up - compared to some I don't have much, compared to most I probably have too much and right now it all sits in a Peppa Pig shopping tote.
Tackle the drawers, junk and otherwise. They don't shut - or open.

My reign as Queen Bee Hoarder must end this month - at least in the bedroom!

Do you set any monthly goals?

Resolutions

The New Year is approaching and the idea of a fresh start is forefront in my mind. 

But what do I want to change?

How do I become the best me I can be?

What can I change that will benefit me in the long term?

What experiences would I like to have and which would I prefer to not repeat?

With those questions in mind, what shall I add to my list of priorities for the year?

1. Moisturise more regularly, and I mean everyday not just when I remember. 

2. Take better care of my nails, they are in a total state right now splitting and breaking. 

3. Keep on top of the housework (this is a biggie)

4. Get organised, losing your diary is not the way forward.

5. Eat better, fell off my health wagon a bit this year. Getting your bum stuck in a chair at church is a pretty dramatic emphasis that you need to get back on that.

6. Read more books for fun. I read, I read a lot, for work... what happens on television is just not that interesting and frequently very badly spelt when I see it. 

7. Find THE perfect RED lipstick. 

Yes, the last one is a bit flippant, but really I have been looking for years. At least 5 of them and I still have yet to find THE perfect one, I have got close... just not quite there yet. 

What are you're plans/resolutions for the brand spanking new year?